It's funny seeing what really happened regarding me on this site, so misconstrued by a third party.

I thought me and Nick hashed this out a month ago and came to a mutual understanding but it seems people still believe I actually did something to harm this site. I am going to let it all out right here and you all can comment your frustrations on my blog. When I was venting my anger towards this site and my banning a couple months ago I was bored as shitttttt and amusing myself in my free time. I was waiting for school to begin and had nothing really to do since my PC was broken and I couldn't game.

I then bought myself an xbox and I started school and I have been busy enjoying my free time, getting sttled in my new apt and busting my damn balls in school to maintain straight A's in my Web Design program.

I could give two shits less what's going on with the attacks on this site. Nick knows that I am not associated with it, he also knows that I even posted a thread on the rival site asking everyone to please stop attacking MaG so I could have some peace and so they wouldn't be reprimanded legally.

All that concerns ANY of you is that me and Nick have an understanding and we are on neutral terms and he knows damned well I'm too busy to be involved in anything concerning the attacks on MaG.

I have been back over a month and I barely even do anything. I maybe see a forum thread here and there I like and post something but apparently I'm not allowed to do so so guess what? I DONT CARE. I won't post in the forums because I have better things to worry about like my homework and completely enjoying my new life and adventures :)

I will say this one last time....I AM A BUSY LADY, I don't have time for childsplay anymore and I just won't be a part of it. I'll just turn and walk the other way.

Please get the fuck over it already -_-

I'm talking to ALL of you. I really don't care who does what. My focus is on my 105 thousand dollar schooling that i take very seriously. I want to make a wonderful life for myself. I think you can all appreciate that.

friends...foes....please forget about everything, stop fighting with each other and just have fun :)

People fear that which they do not understand, nor can control.
I will take away your comfort, your simple thoughts.
I will strip away all which you believe is right and true.
Once I am finished with you, you will reach an enlightened state of mind.
The world as you know it will become foreign and brand new, and you will be free.

The weak will deny and shun my presence.

The strong will rise up and rule our New World Order by my side.

Which side are you on?

Just because you grew up playing without any influence doesn't mean all true gamers grew up the same. Because a male introduces gaming to a female means they aren't legit? That would be complete and utter bullshit my dear. Whether a male introduces a female or not those females ALL are wired the same if they choose to play independently. If a male didn't introduce you SOMETHING did.


Also, if you were in fact correct about male introduction that would thus mean, because the male friends in my life introduced me to my love for racing/building cars, it means I am a fake enthusiast despite the fact I can correct males in car talk when they make mistakes? Or even though I can build and work on my own vehicles, it's really not legit?


Many a time I chose gaming over hanging out with friends, I chose gaming over going to family events and no one was playing with me then. My bf and I BOTH equally get frustrated at each other for not putting down our games at certain times when the other wants to do something else.

Btw, I'm not one of the HALO/WoW/MW2 girls ;) I have 2/3 but I no longer play them, I've moved on. I've always preferred single player games. I just play multi-player with my boys when they want to because I'm versatile like that.

I began gaming at age 7, between there and 23 where did my bf come in? I have my own PC, had my own xbox/ps2 in years past, had my own DOS pc, and my own NES/SNES/GAMECUBE/SEGA/N64.

I don't play my bf's games, I play mine. Yes, I buy him almost all of HIS games and I damned well play them too because wth is the point of buying two single player games when we live together and game in the same room? This is a tough economy but I'm still the one paying for the games ;)

Just because a female chooses to play multiplayer/MMO games doesn't make them any less gamers than you. By judging their choice to play you are thereby opressing then just as the men oppress you by criticizing you for being a "girl gamer" You have no right to be an elitist and judge others for their different gaming interests. Your games are not superior to theirs simply because it's what you choose to play. I don't go around criticizing chicks who play multiplayer games when I prefer single player as well.

One question. Who bought you your first console? Because if you're gaming as a child you can't buy your own. I'm just curious as to how you acquired one.

Go ahead and delete my true and mind challenging post again, people still see it before you delete it and will wonder why it ends up deleted later on.

Being biased isn't a pretty thing.

I was just thinking about this a bit.

As most of you know I am more attracted to women than I am to men, and I already have my male quota filled with my wonderful and handsome bf of about 3 years. :)

Females around this site, in real life and other sites who have decided to have issues with me over my beliefs and opinions on subjects, always seem to fabricate this lie that I am insecure and I am jealous of and fight women that are supposedly more beautiful and intelligent than I am. Now I'm a bit confused with this conclusion of theirs. How is it that a woman who is incredibly attracted to beautiful and intelligent women, is also threatened by them? o.0 Wouldn't this mean that I would never find a woman I can relate to on a relationship level, because the only people, male or female, who I will engage in relations with MUST have intelligence, strength and independence comprable or above my level?

I'm just trying to understand exactly how women can reach such a conclusion of a bisexual female. It's much more fitting for straight women to be accused of this because they have no significant investments towards their own gender, only the male gender. What are your thoughts? :)

Oh yes, and if you are a beautiful and intelligent bi female, let's talk. ;P

So I have taken new pictures for the first time in about 5 months. I was pretty excited because I just found my camera charger again :) I have been promptly accused of copying someone's pose in one of my (many)pictures, go figure.

How does one copy a pose? Is there some code of ownership on how people appear in a picture stating that others cannot take a picture looking the same in some variation? If so that would mean I have ownership of said pose because I took multiple pictures between 2005-2008 using like variations? Wouldn't we all be copycats because all of the models in the world have done the same poses we have done in pictures long before we have? Exhibiting similar actions to others on occassion doesn't make anyone a copycat it means you have similar tastes.

I just find it so amusing that some people go to such an extent to try to defame others when they have nothing to go by.

Hopefully those of you exhibiting these behaviors in this world will grow up someday and realize life does not revolve around you and your petty woes. Smile be happy and go on with your lives, stop worrying about others because they're most certainly not concerned with your lives. You'll just die young from stress.

2005-2008

Suck it bitches and go take some new pictures too if you're displeased t( ^_^t)

Everyone help build the activity on the site and become more active in the forums. It's a great way to discuss topics with others without it getting all jumbled up in the chat room.

If there is a specific topic you would like to discuss or question you would like to have addressed forums is the place to be! The activity on forums is picking up more and more each day and is becoming quite fun for everyone to socialize and discuss :)

Don't neglect chat though it's still a great place to just talk and be silly with others from the site.

So I'll start with a little background, right before I graduated high school(2003) I applied to The Art Institute. Remember the old school application where you drew the Turtle head and submitted it through snail mail? Yepppp. I got the call back, I pleaded with my parents to attend and do something creative with my life. They didn't believe that was a "legit" college education and that conversation ended before it began, my creative mind had been stifled.

I was a good girl follwing family careers and I went to school for Criminal Justice and received a degree. Halfway through completing my degree I had decided I wanted so badly to pursue a career in mechanics because I was obsessed with building cars(something creative). I applied to Wyotech and everything, but my parents refused to let me follow my passion. They told me I was being impulsive and unrealistic, when I wanted to do something I loved, not something heroic. Criminal Justice degree proceeded.

Now here I am in the midst of a life changing decision. My bf has chosen to pursue a Web Design major at The Art Institute of San Diego. We had a rough past few days debating on whether or not I should move back to Oregon to finish the goals I want for myself personally in my education. We both know I have a brilliantly creative mind and I don't really feel "excited" about Psych and after he told me about the Wacom Bamboo Art pad for PC's that he wanted to get me for Christmas I started thinking. I love drawing, asketching and creating. I want to thoroughly enjoy a career and I want to be able to have an option to work from home successfully in the future once we marry and have children. I'm not stay at home mom material but I coldn't imagine throwing my children at a daycare all day. I want to raise them yet still provide.

Tomorrow I'm going with my BF to his financial aid appt. and I'm going to talk to them as well :) I have decided I may either enroll into Culinary Management, Interior Design or Media Arts and Animation. My strongest choice currently being Arts and Animation because the field choices for such are so incredibly broad from Architectural Design to Forensics. I can't wait to unleash my true creativity and potential on this world. :)

I think this is going to be a great change in my life. I am finally going to make a career choice for ME, and I'm not taking no for an answer this time around!